For as long as I remember I have been bad. Nearly expelled from a Catholic elementary school I had punched a nun in the stomach. She hit me first. Making up sins to tell the priest in confession–my penance was so long I pissed while kneeling at the altar. For doing this I may not go straight to heaven. At school lunch I would take other kids’ food. This lead to weight gain since I mostly took cookies. I was obsessed with girls bodies, always picturing in my mind what they looked like naked. This was not a learned behavior. It came to me naturally.
As I have gotten much older, I still have bad thoughts–I just don’t act on them. Getting old is no fun.